I've seen a lot of good things happen because of Gofundme webpage. I've seen miracles happen because of it. I've also seen some greedy people post crap on the page.
But let me tell you that this one isn't crap. It's not some fake thing with some person only looking for money because they're greedy. This one is different. This is my uncle.
He has had health issues for many years and hasn't work in a long time because of it. Now, he needs help more than ever. I ask everybody who reads this to please donate to my uncle. He needs help. Spread the word. Get more eyes on it. Help him. Please.
http://www.gofundme.com/meybzc
Tuesday, March 3, 2015
Saturday, January 10, 2015
Ramblings about Health
I have Rheumatoid Arthritis and hypothyroidism. Both cause fatigue and aches and pains and I usually don't know which disease is causing what. I've had Rheumatoid Arthritis for about 17 or 18 years now. You know what I hate the most about R.A? Surprisingly, it's not the pain. It's the lack of energy and the fatigue that makes you feel like you could drop right where you're standing. I've been told I have a high tolerance for pain and I guess with this disease, I'd have to. I have days where I can barely walk because the pain is so bad. I couldn't imagine if somebody without that high tolerance spent one day in my shoes.
I work full time. I have canes everywhere. One in my car, one at my desk at work, and more at home. Problem is that the cane rarely helps. On the days when I need the cane most, I'm usually having an issue with my fingers, my hands or my wrists. Hell, even my elbows too. And that makes it hard to hold and use a cane.
Now for the complaints... If you go to a rheumatologist, first thing they'll do is tell you you're too fat and you need to lose weight. Then they'll give you prednisone which is a steroid and makes you eat constantly and gain weight. Where's the logic in that? Then they'll give you medicines that lower your immune system so that's almost non-existent. Now, if I wasn't around people all the time, I might be okay with that. But I work in an office where people come in sick all the time. Hell, a few years ago, somebody had a cold or some respiratory funk but when it got to me, it turned in viral meningitis because of how screwed up my immune system is. And doctors want me to lower my immune system voluntarily so I am at greater risk of getting sick and catching every germ work people have? Yea, that's not happening. Also, it has been my experience that these doctors won't give you pain medication because they want the arthritis drugs to do their thing. so you end up in pain anyway.
So in my opinion, rheumatologists suck. They don't know what they're doing. I've had them tell me "If you lose all that weight, you'll feel better." Bullshit. I've lost the weight before. I got down to 170 something. I was still in pain daily. Which is I haven't seen a rheumatologist in years. They give you drugs to make you fat, to get rid of your immune system and they insult you. So yea, I have a problem with them.
Now, I have a physical on Monday and I haven't had one in years because my previous doctor let me lapse on them. I was seeing her constantly for the thyroid issues before. But this doc won't let me get by it. I'm prepping for what she'll say. She'll say I'm fat and I need to lose weight. I'll tell her about the R.A. and fatigue and no energy and pain, she'll give me a list of rheumatologists so I can go see one. She'll probably put me on blood pressure medicine because I know my blood pressure will sky rocket just from being there.
I digress.... the point of this post was that I'm tired of this disease. if I get treated, I'll be put on drugs I don't agree with. If I don't get it treated, I continue on as I am and potentially hear my doctor complain to me.
The scientists and doctors need to come up with a different way to treat auto-immune diseases. Stopping and/or lowering your immune system is not helpful in my opinion. if I took the drugs they want me to, sure, my R.A. might be better but then I'll be open to every germ, every cold, every type of flu, have the possibility to get meningitis again. And that's not going to happen. Meningitis terrified me. It wasn't life threatening or anything. It made me lose my mind. and I won't go through that again. so I deal with the pain of R.A.
so yes, I have Rheumatoid Arthritis. but I also work full time and I also have written like 7 or 8 books and countless poems, not to mention the countless books in progress (none of it published). And I have this blog which I don't keep active as much I'd like. so if I have any readers out there who wonder why I don't post often enough, now you know why.
If you've read this far, well, I'm sorry this sort of turned into a bitch fest. I just wanted to explain things and get thoughts written down..
I work full time. I have canes everywhere. One in my car, one at my desk at work, and more at home. Problem is that the cane rarely helps. On the days when I need the cane most, I'm usually having an issue with my fingers, my hands or my wrists. Hell, even my elbows too. And that makes it hard to hold and use a cane.
Now for the complaints... If you go to a rheumatologist, first thing they'll do is tell you you're too fat and you need to lose weight. Then they'll give you prednisone which is a steroid and makes you eat constantly and gain weight. Where's the logic in that? Then they'll give you medicines that lower your immune system so that's almost non-existent. Now, if I wasn't around people all the time, I might be okay with that. But I work in an office where people come in sick all the time. Hell, a few years ago, somebody had a cold or some respiratory funk but when it got to me, it turned in viral meningitis because of how screwed up my immune system is. And doctors want me to lower my immune system voluntarily so I am at greater risk of getting sick and catching every germ work people have? Yea, that's not happening. Also, it has been my experience that these doctors won't give you pain medication because they want the arthritis drugs to do their thing. so you end up in pain anyway.
So in my opinion, rheumatologists suck. They don't know what they're doing. I've had them tell me "If you lose all that weight, you'll feel better." Bullshit. I've lost the weight before. I got down to 170 something. I was still in pain daily. Which is I haven't seen a rheumatologist in years. They give you drugs to make you fat, to get rid of your immune system and they insult you. So yea, I have a problem with them.
Now, I have a physical on Monday and I haven't had one in years because my previous doctor let me lapse on them. I was seeing her constantly for the thyroid issues before. But this doc won't let me get by it. I'm prepping for what she'll say. She'll say I'm fat and I need to lose weight. I'll tell her about the R.A. and fatigue and no energy and pain, she'll give me a list of rheumatologists so I can go see one. She'll probably put me on blood pressure medicine because I know my blood pressure will sky rocket just from being there.
I digress.... the point of this post was that I'm tired of this disease. if I get treated, I'll be put on drugs I don't agree with. If I don't get it treated, I continue on as I am and potentially hear my doctor complain to me.
The scientists and doctors need to come up with a different way to treat auto-immune diseases. Stopping and/or lowering your immune system is not helpful in my opinion. if I took the drugs they want me to, sure, my R.A. might be better but then I'll be open to every germ, every cold, every type of flu, have the possibility to get meningitis again. And that's not going to happen. Meningitis terrified me. It wasn't life threatening or anything. It made me lose my mind. and I won't go through that again. so I deal with the pain of R.A.
so yes, I have Rheumatoid Arthritis. but I also work full time and I also have written like 7 or 8 books and countless poems, not to mention the countless books in progress (none of it published). And I have this blog which I don't keep active as much I'd like. so if I have any readers out there who wonder why I don't post often enough, now you know why.
If you've read this far, well, I'm sorry this sort of turned into a bitch fest. I just wanted to explain things and get thoughts written down..
Thursday, December 4, 2014
Inspiration comes from funny things
On the way to work this morning, I was flipping through radio stations and heard a song come on that I couldn’t
help but listen to. Then I thought of my book I was writing and thought of a
scene with this song in it. So of course, I had to write the scene idea down once I got to work.
Now, I want to hurry and get to where I want the scene so I can write it out and
laugh.
Scene idea: Have CeeCee in her room (while on vacation and staying in somebody’s house).She’s in a good mood, feeling oddly better and starts listening to music.A song comes on and she can’t resist dancing and singing to it.Little does she know that her host (Xander) has walked in the room and is watching her sing and dance.Song is Pony
Scene idea: Have CeeCee in her room (while on vacation and staying in somebody’s house).She’s in a good mood, feeling oddly better and starts listening to music.A song comes on and she can’t resist dancing and singing to it.Little does she know that her host (Xander) has walked in the room and is watching her sing and dance.Song is Pony
If your horny, Let's do it
Ride it, My Pony
My saddle's waiting
Come and jump on it
yea, yea, yea...
yea, yea, yea...
Monday, November 24, 2014
Thoughts on writing...
I have written 8 books to completion. They have a beginning, a middle and an end. That's an accomplishment. Yes, they are not published but how many people actually write one book, let alone 8?
While I am happy that I got those stories out, I also am unhappy. You see, I also have 7 books that are in progress. I come up with an idea, start writing and then lose interest part way through. If I can't hold my own interest when writing the book, readers aren't going to want to read them at all.
I haven't written in two months. I open my book files, read them and try to come up with something new to add and I get nothing. I even opened up my idea file and decided they all suck. So now I sit here, trying to come up with a new book idea and so far, all I could think of was writing this blog.
Sigh...
As for my completed 8 books, I still need to get them published. I still want to go the self publishing route but I need money for it. I had promised myself to get one book published this year and yet, here it is almost the end of November and still I'm not published. The problem is money. I had saved up a lot of money at the beginning of the year, and then life happened. I had to pay a ton for dental work (really bad teeth). And once that was over, I started saving again. Then a hail storm happened and insurance decided my car was totalled. So I bought a new car and still have money left over (Hurray!). However, I'm trying to hold on to that money because I'll need more dental work next year (have to wait for insurance to reset itself) plus, any extra money I get next year will be saved for a new condo. While I love living in an apartment, it's time for me to move. Rent keeps increasing and my full time job doesn't give high enough raises.
So between my sudden car payment and trying to save money for more teeth work and possible Condo buying at the end of next year, I'm starting to lose hope that I'll get one of my books published. However, I will promise myself here and now, to push all my worries aside and save money just for publishing costs.
Until then, I'm trying to decide whether to post a first chapter of one of my books here on my blog. Do I have any readers who would want to see a chapter? I write mostly paranormal romance so if you are curious, post a comment here and let me know.
While I am happy that I got those stories out, I also am unhappy. You see, I also have 7 books that are in progress. I come up with an idea, start writing and then lose interest part way through. If I can't hold my own interest when writing the book, readers aren't going to want to read them at all.
I haven't written in two months. I open my book files, read them and try to come up with something new to add and I get nothing. I even opened up my idea file and decided they all suck. So now I sit here, trying to come up with a new book idea and so far, all I could think of was writing this blog.
Sigh...
As for my completed 8 books, I still need to get them published. I still want to go the self publishing route but I need money for it. I had promised myself to get one book published this year and yet, here it is almost the end of November and still I'm not published. The problem is money. I had saved up a lot of money at the beginning of the year, and then life happened. I had to pay a ton for dental work (really bad teeth). And once that was over, I started saving again. Then a hail storm happened and insurance decided my car was totalled. So I bought a new car and still have money left over (Hurray!). However, I'm trying to hold on to that money because I'll need more dental work next year (have to wait for insurance to reset itself) plus, any extra money I get next year will be saved for a new condo. While I love living in an apartment, it's time for me to move. Rent keeps increasing and my full time job doesn't give high enough raises.
So between my sudden car payment and trying to save money for more teeth work and possible Condo buying at the end of next year, I'm starting to lose hope that I'll get one of my books published. However, I will promise myself here and now, to push all my worries aside and save money just for publishing costs.
Until then, I'm trying to decide whether to post a first chapter of one of my books here on my blog. Do I have any readers who would want to see a chapter? I write mostly paranormal romance so if you are curious, post a comment here and let me know.
Monday, November 10, 2014
Complaints about books
I love reading and I read a lot. I'll read free books and ones that cost money if they sound good to me. One thing that turns me off of buying a book is the length. If it's less than 100 pages, I'm not paying for it (if it's free, I'll think about downloading it). If it's less than 200 pages and costs 4.99 and up, it's doubtful I'll pay for it. It has to be a part of a series and I really have to want it to make it okay for paying that much for a book that's not that long. I have stopped reading series of books because the length is no longer there.
It seems like more often these days, authors are writing serials where you pay 99 cents or more for short segments of books. I hate that. Luckily, there are authors who after providing a serial will put the book together when they are done and offer it as one whole book but there aren't enough people doing that. While short serial type books seem to be popular and okay for a lot of people, I don't like them.
To me, if you publish something that's less than 100 pages, it's not really a book. However, I've seen authors publish a 50 page story and call it a novel.
I use Amazon when searching for books to download onto my ipad. That's just a personal preference. However, their advanced search leaves a lot to be desired. I would like it if I could search for books based on length. Just add another field to their field so it looks like Pages greater than and then you can type in the number. I don't know what coding they would need to do on their end but I wish they would do it. It would make me happy.
Also, I would love it if authors didn't include the extra pages as their total page count. I want the number of pages of the actual story or the word count of the actual story. I'd be good with word count too. Too often, I buy a book and find it's actually shorter than what the description says. I also find some books don't even include a length at all on the website. Why not?
I want to read books with a good length. 300 pages or around 80,000 words. I want to be able to search for full length novels. Actual novels and not serials. I want the length of the book to be a requirement when you make it for sale on websites.
Sigh. Having so many short stories out there now, has made searcing for an actual book, somewhat of a chore. If I find a story that sounds interesting, I look at the cost of the book. Then I look at how long it is. Books under 100 pages aren't even considered. Books under 200 pages, make me ask "Do I really want to spend three bucks on a short book?" 99 cents, I'll consider it more. Hell, even 2.99 I'll consider buying it. Anymore than that? I'd have to really want the book.
If you made it this far in this long rant, leave me a comment. Tell me what you think. I can't believe I'm alone in my need for longer books out there.
It seems like more often these days, authors are writing serials where you pay 99 cents or more for short segments of books. I hate that. Luckily, there are authors who after providing a serial will put the book together when they are done and offer it as one whole book but there aren't enough people doing that. While short serial type books seem to be popular and okay for a lot of people, I don't like them.
To me, if you publish something that's less than 100 pages, it's not really a book. However, I've seen authors publish a 50 page story and call it a novel.
I use Amazon when searching for books to download onto my ipad. That's just a personal preference. However, their advanced search leaves a lot to be desired. I would like it if I could search for books based on length. Just add another field to their field so it looks like Pages greater than and then you can type in the number. I don't know what coding they would need to do on their end but I wish they would do it. It would make me happy.
Also, I would love it if authors didn't include the extra pages as their total page count. I want the number of pages of the actual story or the word count of the actual story. I'd be good with word count too. Too often, I buy a book and find it's actually shorter than what the description says. I also find some books don't even include a length at all on the website. Why not?
I want to read books with a good length. 300 pages or around 80,000 words. I want to be able to search for full length novels. Actual novels and not serials. I want the length of the book to be a requirement when you make it for sale on websites.
Sigh. Having so many short stories out there now, has made searcing for an actual book, somewhat of a chore. If I find a story that sounds interesting, I look at the cost of the book. Then I look at how long it is. Books under 100 pages aren't even considered. Books under 200 pages, make me ask "Do I really want to spend three bucks on a short book?" 99 cents, I'll consider it more. Hell, even 2.99 I'll consider buying it. Anymore than that? I'd have to really want the book.
If you made it this far in this long rant, leave me a comment. Tell me what you think. I can't believe I'm alone in my need for longer books out there.
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