Thoughts of Happiness

What makes you happy? For me, I'm happiest when I write. When the words flow from my fingertips to the keyboard without much thought or advance planning, that's what makes me happy. When that doesn't happen, I have other things to make me happy. Like playing Warcraft or LOTRO with Michelle and talking to her over the computer. Even when we don't say much, we know we are there for each other and may break up the silence with a rude noise. Ha Ha! Also, work does make me happy. Yes, I will always complain about it because I think it's human nature to do so. But, I love my job and I love being able to work full time which is not too common for people with R.A.

Other things that make me happy, Fridays.. It seems everybody's attitude is lighter on Fridays because they are planning their weekends. My cat, Pipsqueek makes me happy too. I watch him as he tears through the apartment, occasionally running into walls or falling off counters. He's a dork and a klutz but he makes me really happy. Nothing like coming home after a long day at work and he greets me at the door, ready for attention. He's a sweetheart.

I could list a million things that make me happy but that would be boring. Instead, I want you to think about what makes you happy. What brings a smile to your face? It could be something you do everyday or just once in a while. It could be anything. Just think about it. What makes you happy?

Edited to add: Great, just realized I sound like I'm trying to get you to think happy thoughts so I sprinkle pixie dust on you so you can fly. lmao

Lucky

With yesterday's gloomy post, I thought I'd post something positive today. So here it goes..

I'm a lucky girl. I have a roof over my head, I have a steady job, I have my family and terrific friends (I'm looking at you, Michelle). While, I'm not the healthiest person around, I can work full time and I can pay bills. I'm also lucky enough to be able to write poems, my books and in my blog.

I am a lucky person.

How about you?

Is Laughter a good sign?

Tonight, I started reading the second book I started and read the first 83 pages. I remember I had stopped writing it because I thought it was crap. I didn't know where to take the next scene, didn't know where the book was going and just thought it sucked. It was end of May 2008 that I stopped writing it and I didn't pick it up again. I didn't even read any pages until tonight.

I found the 83 pages I had printed up and decided to read it. Now, besides some missing words and a couple of bad spelling mistakes, I actually enjoyed it. I didn't even want to put it down to write down what needed fixing. I laughed while reading my book but in a good way. I found the humor I had put in my book and it may just be reigniting that spark to continue with it.

I also found I had incorporated a friend into the book a bit and I don't know if she knows. Michelle, I'm talking about you.

So is it a good thing that a writer laughs at the things she writes? Will the public (if anybody ever reads this book) find the humor that I did?

Now, I must finish reading the pages I didn't print up and try to find the mistakes I found before. I need to find out what turned me off from continuing this book.

Happiness is....

Happiness is discovering that the abscess has reduced and basically gone away on it's own so I don't have to go to the dentist this week.

Yesterday, I found an abscess on my upper gum near a bad tooth. I knew I had to call a dentist and make an appointment. Sounds easy, right? Well, add in a fear of dentists and the unnatural needles in mouths and what not, and it's not easy anymore. I was dreading it.
Well, I settled on a dentist to call, took a couple advil and went to bed. This morning, the abscess was still there at 5am. I took a couple more advil, rinced my mouth with warm water and strong mouth wash (oh that burned!!!) and by 7am, I thought "am I imaging things or is the abscess smaller?" by 9am, the abscess was gone completely.

So I am happy! I get to put off a trip to the dentist until next week. It was just bad timing this week because I'm swamped at work! and really, that's not just an excuse. just too many things going on at work.

Just thought I'd share a bit of happiness...

Happy Birthday to me

Wellm I'm 37 years old today. Mentally, I very much feel like a teenager, complete with selfishness, rebelions, depressions, and mood swings. Physically, thanks to my arthritis, I feel like I'm 60 years old. Woke up this morning with fingers extremely stiff and sore but that's my own fault. I've been trying to get off the prednisone so only took 2 pills last night. But I took one this morning along with excedrin because of the sore fingers. On the plus side, my legs aren't that much of a problem anymore. My legs still bother me but my fingers and shoulders are worse. I can deal with the leg pains, no problem at all. It used to be, I'd have pain all through my body. While exercise has helped to dimish the leg pain, the pain is not gone completely.

Speaking of exercise, I need to get back on the gazelle today. My goal was to be 150 lbs by today. While I'm not 150, I'm still happy. I am at 159.5lbs today. yes, I lost 74.5 pounds. I have 9.5 more pounds to go to get to my goal. I'd like to try and lose as much of that as I can this week. The 15th is payday and I'll have extra money. Plus, my tax refunds are scheduled to be in my account around that date too. So next weekend, I can actually go shopping. So I want to lose as much weight as I can before then, so I can hope, pray, beg, squeeze into a size 12. At this moment, I don't see size 12 as a possibility. I feel fat. but I'm holding on to a thread of hope that it can happen.

No plans for my birthday. haven't heard from any family members so it looks like I'll be spending it alone. If that is still the case by noon, I'll go to the liquor store and buy myself a treat. Then go to the grocery store and treat myself to a steak. Steak is so darn expensive these days, and I haven't bought any for probably a year now. But It's my birthday and darn it, I'm worth it.

So today, I'll do more writing, exercise, maybe clean up this pig sty I live in and also go to the store. Once I can actually bend my fingers, then I'll get on the gazelle. No use in trying to use the Gazelle when you can't grip the handles. Maybe I'll go soak my fingers in extremely hot (almost burning) water. That always does the trick.

Thank you to my friends who have already wished me a happy birthday. You guys are great and I love ya! That's all from me, see ya on the 'net. Oh, and get up and move! Dance to your own tune and Dance like nobody's watching!

Shocking!!

I had a shock this morning. I got on the scale still half asleep but the number I saw woke me up. It actually said 159.5 lbs!!! I was so thrilled that I ran and got the camera. set the camera down nearby and got on the scale again. this time it said 160.5. rats. LOL But I'm still recording the 159.5. I saw that number, it was real darnit! LOL I took my measurements last night. I was surprised to see the numbers go down as much as they did but I won't argue. I'll take it.

It's a good way to start the day and I don't even mind how painful my fingers are this morning from the arthritis. I do mind how cold it is though. Since I've been up, the temperature went from 5 °F to 2.2 °F / -16.6 °C . The weather weenies say it will get up to 34 °F today. I'll believe that when I see it. With the inch of snow and ice out there and the cold temperture, I guess I'll have to leave a bit early for work.

As messy and horrible traffic will be, I'll still be in a good mood. All Thanks to that number I saw on the scale briefly this morning.