Happy Birthday to me

Wellm I'm 37 years old today. Mentally, I very much feel like a teenager, complete with selfishness, rebelions, depressions, and mood swings. Physically, thanks to my arthritis, I feel like I'm 60 years old. Woke up this morning with fingers extremely stiff and sore but that's my own fault. I've been trying to get off the prednisone so only took 2 pills last night. But I took one this morning along with excedrin because of the sore fingers. On the plus side, my legs aren't that much of a problem anymore. My legs still bother me but my fingers and shoulders are worse. I can deal with the leg pains, no problem at all. It used to be, I'd have pain all through my body. While exercise has helped to dimish the leg pain, the pain is not gone completely.

Speaking of exercise, I need to get back on the gazelle today. My goal was to be 150 lbs by today. While I'm not 150, I'm still happy. I am at 159.5lbs today. yes, I lost 74.5 pounds. I have 9.5 more pounds to go to get to my goal. I'd like to try and lose as much of that as I can this week. The 15th is payday and I'll have extra money. Plus, my tax refunds are scheduled to be in my account around that date too. So next weekend, I can actually go shopping. So I want to lose as much weight as I can before then, so I can hope, pray, beg, squeeze into a size 12. At this moment, I don't see size 12 as a possibility. I feel fat. but I'm holding on to a thread of hope that it can happen.

No plans for my birthday. haven't heard from any family members so it looks like I'll be spending it alone. If that is still the case by noon, I'll go to the liquor store and buy myself a treat. Then go to the grocery store and treat myself to a steak. Steak is so darn expensive these days, and I haven't bought any for probably a year now. But It's my birthday and darn it, I'm worth it.

So today, I'll do more writing, exercise, maybe clean up this pig sty I live in and also go to the store. Once I can actually bend my fingers, then I'll get on the gazelle. No use in trying to use the Gazelle when you can't grip the handles. Maybe I'll go soak my fingers in extremely hot (almost burning) water. That always does the trick.

Thank you to my friends who have already wished me a happy birthday. You guys are great and I love ya! That's all from me, see ya on the 'net. Oh, and get up and move! Dance to your own tune and Dance like nobody's watching!

Shocking!!

I had a shock this morning. I got on the scale still half asleep but the number I saw woke me up. It actually said 159.5 lbs!!! I was so thrilled that I ran and got the camera. set the camera down nearby and got on the scale again. this time it said 160.5. rats. LOL But I'm still recording the 159.5. I saw that number, it was real darnit! LOL I took my measurements last night. I was surprised to see the numbers go down as much as they did but I won't argue. I'll take it.

It's a good way to start the day and I don't even mind how painful my fingers are this morning from the arthritis. I do mind how cold it is though. Since I've been up, the temperature went from 5 °F to 2.2 °F / -16.6 °C . The weather weenies say it will get up to 34 °F today. I'll believe that when I see it. With the inch of snow and ice out there and the cold temperture, I guess I'll have to leave a bit early for work.

As messy and horrible traffic will be, I'll still be in a good mood. All Thanks to that number I saw on the scale briefly this morning.

Weight a minute

On January 14th, I weighed 162 lbs and that's the last time I updated my ticker below. Then stress happened. Little sleep, lots of food, lots of stress and worry, I went up to 167. Today, after a week of working, still with little sleep (except last night I did get 7 hours, Yippee!!) and forcing myself not to chow down on everything, I'm back down to 162 lbs.

My original goal was to be at 150 lbs by February 9th which is my birthday. I figured that would be the best present I could give myself. If I still want to make that goal, I'd have to lose 12 pounds in 2 weeks which I just know aint gonna happen. But If I can get down to 154, I'd be thrilled. Why 154? Because then I could have that even number of 80.

I'll work at it and see what I can lose. Hopefully, the arthritis won't be too bad and I can actually do more exercise. On my February 9th, I'll post here to tell you what my weight is. I'll also give you my decision about whether to continue the weight loss to try to get down to a number in the 140 range. Heck, I may decide to lose as much as I can before march 28th. March 28th will be my 1 year anniversary of when I started this weight loss battle.

As good as it feels to have lost all this weight, I have to remember. I may be winning the battle but the war will never be one. I will constantly fight with weight for the rest of my life. Or at least until I reach that moment of utter defeat for when I truly give up. I can't say that won't happen because in a nother 20 years, I probably won't give a damn about weight. LOL