Funk

I'm in a funk. lately, all I seem to want to do is read a lot of books, do some writing and maybe watch TV. Only games i've been playing have been on Facebook.

I have stuff to do around here, like laundry, take out the trash, clean off dining room table. yet, I sit.

I know I was tired all the time (thanks to the R.A. and issues) before my stint with the hospital and recovery at home. Since I've been back to work, I'm even more tired if that's possible. But being tired isn't the only thing. I have no will, no desire to do a damn thing. just read, write, and watch TV.

It's not depression but I don't know what it is. It's a funk and I need to escape it. blah

Book Thoughts

You know how I’ve been wanting to go with Self publishing for my books, right? Well, last night, while I was trying to get to sleep, I had a sudden idea. What if I submitted my ghost book to a publisher or two? The worst that can happen is that I get rejected and I’ll use self publishing anyway.

But to do that, I’ll need to choose some publishers, see if they’ll take submissions without an agent, create a query letter and also create a synopsis for my book. Even if I don’t end up submitting to publishers, I think I still need to create a synopsis or summary for my books. Something that catches the readers eye so that they’ll want to read more.

I found some webpages that talk about how to create a synopsis (length depends on the publisher when submitting), and I know I can do it. One suggested to read through your book with a pen and paper, make notes along the way as you read it. Summarize the chapter in one sentence and move to the next. Another website suggested writing the synopsis before you start writing the book but I don't like that idea.

I think it'll take my full attention and I should do it at home, rather than at work or elsewhere. If anybody reading this knows a writer or a publisher, see if they have any tips for me. I'd really appreciate it.

Oh and I have started a forth book already and I have a title for it. When it comes to titles, I've found that some just come to me before I start writing (like my first and forth books) and others I have agonized over (like my 2nd and 3rd). At any rate, here are my book titles in the order the books were written.

Not Alone
In My Dreams - May change the title, still not sure
My Eternal Love - May remove the 'my', not sure yet
Destined for Darkness - haven't even completed first chapter yet. lol

If I could talk to a published author, I would ask this question. How many whole books did you write before you were published? maybe I'll google that question and see if anybody else asked it.

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Books Books Books

Today, I wrote an epic scene in my third book. A major scene. and I'm pretty proud of it. I just have to write an epilogue for the book, wrap it up and I'll have three written books under belt.

With the first book I wrote, I was proud of it. Couldn't wait to get it published. Then I started my second book and that one was my favorite and I wanted it to be published first. With this third one, I definitely want it published before the other two.

I enjoyed writing all three books. I love the act of sitting at a computer and letting the words fly without a lot of forethought. With each book I wrote, I didn't plan things out (except for the epic scene I just wrote in the third book). While I did think about how I wanted each book, each scene to go, I did not sit down and plan things out. I just wrote. and I love that I can do that.

Thinking about publishing... I was thinking that next year, I could take a small loan out to pay for self-publishing. I don't think I can handle going through agents and getting rejection after rejection. Self-publishing is what I want and I want to do it right. To do it right, costs money. But oh to see my name on the cover of a book, to see people enjoy the book and want more, to have that feeling of accomplishment even if readers don't like what I write. My books aren't for everyone. But people who read them enjoy them. I enjoy them. and I can't wait to get this ghost book published.

A week ago, I wrote down book ideas for my next book. I'll have to go back and read over those ideas again and decide which one to use next. I have written 2 vampire books and 1 ghost book. What will the 4th one be? Only time will tell.

edit: My editor tells me to go back and read my post. okay I did, now what? LOL yea yea yea, I made a couple of corrections

I had an adventure with one of my characters

I think I have been reading too many paranormal romance novels lately and I've been writing too much or focusing too much(if there is such a thing) in my book.

Last night, I dreamed of the ghost in my book. His name is Eric. In the dream, I was in bed, trying to get to sleep when the room grew cold. I saw the air sort of shimmer next to my bed and Eric manifested there. He looked as he does in my book, tall, shoulder length hair, nice build, see through and yummy. lol

"What...How?" I started to say as I sat up in bed.

"We have business to attend to. Come with me." Eric said and held out his hand.

"But..." I was still shocked to see him standing there, a character I created.

"Come. I'll explain later. We must leave now." Eric insisted.

I took his hand and before I could get out of bed, Eric and I disappeared from my bedroom. A second later, and we were in a forest but I didn't know where. Eric looked around as if looking for something, then we disappeared again. We reappeared in a strange home. Again, Eric looked around for something. Before I could say anything, we disappeared again. Now, my stomach was starting to act up. You go popping into various places and see how your stomach acts. lol

When we reappeared again, we were in what I guessed was a castle. It had stone walls, torches instead of lamps, drafty, dark and looked cool. Eric started looking around again but before we could disappear again, I yanked my hand away and stepped back.

"What is the matter?" Eric asked.

"Has it occurred to you that I can't handle poofing around like that?" I snapped at him and leaned against the wall for support. "Just what are you looking for anyway? Why did you drag me out of bed?"

"I thought you knew. You created me." Eric replied.

"I know I created you but that I doesn't mean I know what's going on. Just tell me." I asked him.

"We have to leave. She isn't here." Eric replied. He took my hand again and we disappeared again.

Now, I found myself in a field that I recognized from my book. "That's it. I've had enough." I yelled at him.

"We don't have time for this." Eric told me calmly.

"Then tell me what the Hell is going on!" I yelled.

Eric sighed, "Something went wrong."

"Ya think?" I snapped.

Eric remained quiet as he paced in the field beside me. When he finally stopped pacing, he looked at me once and then disappeared, leaving me in the field alone.

"You can't leave me here!" I yelled after him. "Asshole!"

Then I woke up. lol I don't think there are many writers who dream of their character from their book. Why I dreamed it is a mystery. It doesn't really follow the plot of my book. I think it's just a sign that I read too much. Of course, out of all the characters I have created in my 3 books, I am glad I dreamed of him. He was yummy. lol Just wish he told me what was going on. lol

Options!

So, it appears I have a new option in my third book I'm writing. I was told to come up with a mystical option and now I have one. I never would have thought of this option if it wasn't suggested. It sent me thinking, coming up with how the option works, the new character who would help with that new option and how to introduce her.

I've got the introduction to the new character done. Now, I just need to come up with a name, a description for her and her mannerisms. How is this new gal going to act? I also have to figure out how exactly to do this new option. I did research on the internet and found something similiar (trying to write to about it with out giving away any info is hard) so I can probably work with it and change up what I found to make it work for my book.

I do like the idea of this new option. I did talk about the first two options a lot in my book, gave the characters something to think about and build up a little drama perhaps. Also gave the readers of the book something to think about in case they never thought of this before.

I'm excited about this new option. I just have to think...

Choices

In my third book, I know that I'm approaching the end. I just don't know how I want to end it. My two main characters have a choice to make and it's a pretty big decision. Do I want a happily ever after ending or a bitter sweet ending that is intended to shock people?

I know other writers have come across the "how to end the book" question. And if I were smart, I'd research it and find out what those writers did.

However, I'm thinking of writing up both endings and see which one I like better. or which one flows better.

Michelle, you've read the choices the characters are facing and i have a feeling that you are going with the first option. I do like that option but I know I could really write a killer option 2 ending. lol So, be prepared to read two different endings... I have a feeling that i won't decide until both are written.

Happy Monday!

Hello all! Today, I'm writing from work. Yup, first day back at work today. I have been here a little over 2 hours and I think I'm caught up already. I'm tired already too and I know I'll be exhausted by the time I get home tonight. I am glad to be back at work though. Being at home is nice but I don't know if I could do it all the time. I'd love to find out though. So if anybody has a lot of money just laying around, give it to me. Pay me to stay home and write and do whatever I want. lol

yea, I know. wishful thinking. Once I get back to my usual work and sleep schedule, I'll post more often here. Maybe post a couple of dreams too.

Until then.. Ta Ta

Sleep...

Ah sleep. that elusive thing that we all crave every night. Since I have been on leave of absence from work, my sleep schedule is totally screwed up. Here it is, : AM and I'm not sleepy. I have chased my cat around the apartment. I played catch the red devil with him (laser beam). now I'm listening to my ipod and swaying and dancing to music in my living room.

This has to change and soon. I go back to work on Monday and I can't really show up all exhausted and sleepy. So I thought that tonight, since I'm not tired, I may as well stay awake all night. maybe nap tomorrow and go to bed at my "normal" time and get up Sunday morning at my normal work time. I need to try get back to my usual sleeping schedule.

But not tonight... tonight, I dance! with the blinds closed of course.. lol

Parachutes are not just fashion statements

Last night, I had one of my weird dreams.  It's been a while so I was glad to have one.   I dreamed that a bunch of my facebook friends, Dad and I were patients in an asylum.   It was our groups turn for a field trip and we all went out for the day.  I think we were on top of a mesa somewhere.   For normal people, it would have been boring but we were patients and having fun!   I was looking around and spotted Dad and a blonde chic running for the cliff.  They had parachutes on their back and they leaped off the cliff.  I ran to the cliff and looked down and watched them fall.  

 

I turned to nobody behind me, held my hand up and said "Um, excuse me but two people just jumped off the cliff."  

 

I turned back to watch the two falling and I guess they forgot they had parachutes on.  yea, they didn't use them.  They both hit the ground with a splat (they failed the bounce test). Dad didn't survive but the blonde did.   I could faintly hear her say "That was fun! Let's do it again!"  

 

I look back at my fellow patients and some were dancing, others were catching "things"   and a couple were laughing.   They were oblivious to the two people that leaped off the cliff.  

 

somebody in the group told me they had a ball and I ran over to play ball with them.    That's when I woke up.  lol 

 

I know it's not as long or detailed as my usual weird dreams but still, I'm glad to have the dreams again and remember them.    I think the point of the dream is to remind me to use my parachute. It's not just on your back to make a fashion statement. LOL